shineerocksmyworldfornow

they're coming to singapore
but i'm not gonna see them at all
they might not come back to singapore
but i won't go see them

i won't

i will go exercise on that day
lose weight
and let my heart bleed out
lose more weight
do something for myself

i am rational
their autographs mean nothing
just look at the davidtao autograph
it's there
rotting away
and i dislike him now

autographs do nothing to make me like them or their songs more
i will still obsess about them, esp onew, even if i will never get to see them in my whole life
not like they will remember me
or that they'll really care whether i'm there or not
even if i'm trampled to death by the fangirls they also won't care (ok maybe they will, but only for a split sec when someone tells them abt it and they think, "we have crazy fans in sg", then go on with their lifes)
so i shall go do something for myself
i'm happy that i'm on the same island as them for the 4.5 days they're here
:)

i am a rational, 20-going-to-21, understanding shinee auntie fan, who enjoys supporting them, w/o feeling a need to meet them in real life, or for them to ever see/know/hear/appreciate me.

thank you

i feel so at peace now knowing that i'm not going
i was so stressed when i heard abt it and then later saw that i had to buy another album there with the special fansigning pass to see them and there was only 1000 of them
but now
aaahhh
AHAHAHA why shld i stress myself, or fight with those fangirls on that day just to see a bunch of really cute kids who will never remember me ?

i'm at peace ... OM~